Cole World

I am deeply disturbed. My closest friends, a lot of people in my life self harm and it disturbs me. These kids are hurting themselves for what they claim is "fun" but I think it's grief. I'm no one to judge but it worries me as I know some of their backstories and they are ugly. I think about that and myself for too long, it's a dark fantasy that I haven't had the grief to validate yet. Sometimes I think bad things, but it's mainly just violent and my way to cope with my surroundings. Please analyze my behavior to see if I'm loving myself or not, tripping on power or my general behavior. I need to pray, meditate I feel something that disturbs me and I hope it's not a premonition, as it'd be the first time God told me something and I caught it.

Might Delete Later wrote:

I am deeply disturbed. My closest friends, a lot of people in my life self harm and it disturbs me. These kids are hurting themselves for what they claim is "fun" but I think it's grief. I'm no one to judge but it worries me as I know some of their backstories and they are ugly. I think about that and myself for too long, it's a dark fantasy that I haven't had the grief to validate yet. Sometimes I think bad things, but it's mainly just violent and my way to cope with my surroundings. Please analyze my behavior to see if I'm loving myself or not, tripping on power or my general behavior. I need to pray, meditate I feel something that disturbs me and I hope it's not a premonition, as it'd be the first time God told me something and I caught it.

Remember this: the prayer that you pray, is not a meaningless prayer, in itself. In order to truly listen to him, though, you have to remember that he knows humanity. He understands what you feel in your heart, even though he has never sinned. Prayers only become meaningless, when you do not let God speak into your soul. You must do what you do in conversation, and that is listen to the one talking to you. Silence your heart and mind, and you will be given the answer. Also, remember that grief does not define who you are. Do not let it consume you. Grief is not evil, in itself, for we all suffer through it; but the moment it consumes you, you are in trouble. And remember: the more that you try to control, the moment that you decide, that all of life is to be determined completely by your own will, you will suffer. Because not everything is in our hands; and truth be told, it shouldn't be. Remember we are the tenants, for which we borrow from our creator life itself, and the world around us. We have the ability to choose what we are to do with our lives, and we have free will. But, we must also listen to him, and trust in him, especially in our darkest moments, but even in the brightest of times; for the burden becomes lighter. Remember, that there is a future for you, and, you are called to something greater than what the present may seem to be. For, the maps have already been laid out. Our journey has already begun. Now, now is your choice to follow that route. I hope that this was of good use to you, for words, especially my words, seem flat to the writer. But I hope I planted a flower, in the cracks of concrete, that, hopefully, you will come to see. And remember - I will pray for you. God bless you, my friend.

Sincerely,
Michael (Zantalio)

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The Banana Moon wrote:

Maybe it would be more productive to just...not argue?

Doesn't seem like it's going anywhere

Imo you guys are both in the wrong but it's not important enough to call for a multi day argument

I might but the argument is of course because of his mention to “not engage with me”.